I have not blogged in quite awhile! Life has been incredibly busy since August. Incredibly busy. Busier than I have ever been in the past 2 years combined.
I picked up some extra curriculars at school, I picked up committees, still taking classes. I feel like my weekends have been so jam-packed. When we had break, it was so nice not to have any where I needed to be. It was nice not to have to look at my planner and plan around everything already set up. But the minute we came back from break, it all started up again.
I'm not complaining, so please don't think I am. Just saying that I have been uber busy. I wished to myself last year that I wanted to be kept busy.
One of the things that has been quickly slipping away is my physical health. It makes me sad when I realize how much I have gained in the past year and a half. I eat Subway every so often, or a salad from a local resturant around here. But it's been motivation and lack of energy for me. When I get home from school, I'm tired. I'm fighting to find the energy to get something done. Maybe there is something else going on? I don't know. I take my vitamins daily. C says when I lie on my back when sleeping at night, he has noticed I stop breathing.
Let me say that I know I need to get that checked out. I KNOW I DO. Sleep Apnea runs in my family. I have only noticed being this tired in the past year. There is a possibility it's a thyroid issue. That also has hit some family members. Even right now, the bags under my eyes are burning, because I am so tired. I should not be this tired. I go to bed on time, get up 8 hours later. I have always been structured like that- I need the sleep. Especially in my profession. I have to take care of myself. So I will try to get in to see the Dr. early next month about that all.
Speaking of taking care of myself...
Because I have been so unhappy with how I look, I made a goal to myself to start this year fresh. When Jan. 1st came rolling in, I was eager and ready to begin. I have lost 5 pounds since January 1st. I've been drinking more water, watching what I eat so much more, working out when I can. Except lsat week- I took the entire week off and I just knew that I would have gained back what I lost. To my surprise, it was kept off. By pushing myself to work out even when I am extremely tired and do not have any energy, through the choices I have made in eating habits, drinking more water, it has all helped.
Don't get me wrong, I'm a foodie. I love to bake. I love to cook. It makes my heart happy, and it will always be something that I enjoy. However, I eat smaller portions, drink more water. When grocery shopping, I always have to look at the goodies and get a craving. I always think, ugh, if I had just one...But I never ever stop, not even before. If I bake anything at home, it's always natural ingredients, and I only have a piece. I think I get more of a rush out of baking than I do in the actual sweets themselves. :D
When I am at the gym, I push myself as hard as I can. I love the fact that I sweat (even though it's gross), because it means I am seeing results. It's going to be slow for awhile, but I know I will keep at this. Someone that I know has been working out for 2 years now. I've always know what they looked like before they became seriously hard-core at the gym. But now, they are almost a different person. They are my inspiration. And any person who refuses to give up.
I can and WILL do this.
