I have to post this quickly.
I always check the news, as in once every few hours. I just read that Hershey's is raising their wholesale prices 9.7%! They aren't sure if it will take place before Easter or not. But wow. I understand they are trying to make a profit in these tough times, but choco-holics like me are in a world of hurt. Granted, I gave up sweets for Lent, so this is helping me. But there are times, like almost everyone else, that I just need a little something.
Le sigh.
I actually knew this was coming. Back in December, I read an article that showed the top 10 things that were expected to go up in price during 2011. Chocolate was among them, as is coffee. How ironic that a little over 4 months ago this article was posted.
Also, I don't want to be the bearer of bad news, but I was told months ago that in about 20 years there may be a chocolate shortage. NOOO! But it's because we consume so much chocolate these days. About a 100 years ago, it was a luxury to have chooclate. Now, it's nothing for us to get it.
Oh, chocolate. We had a good run, didn't we?
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Au Revoir, March
I can honestly say that I will not miss you!
You were a very intense month, and I am glad that we are turning the page into April! Things are a little bit better as far as my post on Tuesday goes. Again, I won't know anything until it's certain. But I'll continue to hope and pray.
I am taking a break at the moment from working on a scrapbook for C. It's the second project I have made. I did a shadow box of things for him last weekend. The scrapbook is something that I wanted to have done by December, but never got around to it. If I can work on just a little bit at a time, then I will hopefully have it done in no time.
After munching on some carrots, I'm about to start working on the scrapbook again. Tomorrow morning, I am going with my Grandma to the hospital so she can have a procedure done. My mom doesn't think there will be any problems, but she just wants her to have someone there just in case. That someone is me, because my mom is busy tomorrow at work.
I finished all my required readings for class, as well as one more paper down. This last paper was harder. For somne reason, I just could not get out what I was trying to say. I started typing it on Monday, and finished it this afternoon...5 pages later.
I'm going to go back to working on the scrapbook page I was working on. I hope you all have a great weekend!
You were a very intense month, and I am glad that we are turning the page into April! Things are a little bit better as far as my post on Tuesday goes. Again, I won't know anything until it's certain. But I'll continue to hope and pray.
I am taking a break at the moment from working on a scrapbook for C. It's the second project I have made. I did a shadow box of things for him last weekend. The scrapbook is something that I wanted to have done by December, but never got around to it. If I can work on just a little bit at a time, then I will hopefully have it done in no time.
After munching on some carrots, I'm about to start working on the scrapbook again. Tomorrow morning, I am going with my Grandma to the hospital so she can have a procedure done. My mom doesn't think there will be any problems, but she just wants her to have someone there just in case. That someone is me, because my mom is busy tomorrow at work.
I finished all my required readings for class, as well as one more paper down. This last paper was harder. For somne reason, I just could not get out what I was trying to say. I started typing it on Monday, and finished it this afternoon...5 pages later.
I'm going to go back to working on the scrapbook page I was working on. I hope you all have a great weekend!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Just Need to Breathe
I am starting to prepare myself in case C won't be home soon. I don't want to think that way, but it could be a reality. A reality that I definitely do not want. No one knows anything on anything. And it's so frustrating. I want a crystal ball. I want to wave a magic wand and make it all better. There is honestly nothing I can do.
I got word yesterday that I can send mail again. However, it could take awhile to get there, and considering he is supposed to be home soon, I don't want to send anything and have it completely miss him. It was a decision that I went back and forth on for a few days. I gave myself a deadline weeks ago of when to mail out anything and that deadline is now. Mainly because it could take more than just 5 days to get there.
I cannot shake this feeling right now that he won't be coming home soon. Maybe it's more of preparing myself for it. We all just want some answers, and unfortunately no one has any information that we don't already know.
I just need to breathe and continue telling myself that everything will be okay. I just need to keep thinking that he will be home soon, because he will.
Okay, I got my thoughts out. I feel a little better.
I got word yesterday that I can send mail again. However, it could take awhile to get there, and considering he is supposed to be home soon, I don't want to send anything and have it completely miss him. It was a decision that I went back and forth on for a few days. I gave myself a deadline weeks ago of when to mail out anything and that deadline is now. Mainly because it could take more than just 5 days to get there.
I cannot shake this feeling right now that he won't be coming home soon. Maybe it's more of preparing myself for it. We all just want some answers, and unfortunately no one has any information that we don't already know.
I just need to breathe and continue telling myself that everything will be okay. I just need to keep thinking that he will be home soon, because he will.
Okay, I got my thoughts out. I feel a little better.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Kids say the cutest things
My nephew was hanging out here earlier today. He was trying to build a tower of blocks, but the tower kept falling over. He was getting frustrated that it wasn't working. So I asked him, "when life gives you lemons, what do you do?"
And he replied, "Take a deep breath."
Did I mention he's 4?? He's so smart, even though I don't think he's heard that before.
The other day, I was watching my 3 nephews when my sis ran some errands. B is 4, H and little B are twins, who are almost 2. They keep life interesting. Anyways, B, Little B, and I were coloring. Or rather, B and I were coloring. Little B was the crayon police. Every time I tried to reach for a crayon in the big box of crayons, he'd say, "No, no!" And hover over the box like it was his job. Finally, I swapped out the crayon I had for another one, and he was okay with that. But I couldn't take more than one apparently.
It was humorous, like he was guarding the box that was specifically for him.
I have a nickname with my nephews. It started when B was just a few months shy of his second birthday. He couldn't say my name, and when he did try, it came out Kiki. So it stuck. He'd argue with anyone when they tried to say my name, he'd say, "No, Kiki." To this day, 2 years later, he still calls me Kiki. Little B started calling me "Cookie." I think he was getting Kiki and the actual food cookie confused. But now he says Kiki, but kind of drawn out. "Kikiii."
B also told me a couple of weeks ago that I was having 5 children, and that their names were going to be Sami, Jo-Jo, Bingo, and Banjo. He didn't realize he left out a name. I asked him why those names, and he said, "Because they are easy to say." Very well. :)
Those definitely won't be the names in the future, although I am not going to crush his idea of those names at the moment.
And he replied, "Take a deep breath."
Did I mention he's 4?? He's so smart, even though I don't think he's heard that before.
The other day, I was watching my 3 nephews when my sis ran some errands. B is 4, H and little B are twins, who are almost 2. They keep life interesting. Anyways, B, Little B, and I were coloring. Or rather, B and I were coloring. Little B was the crayon police. Every time I tried to reach for a crayon in the big box of crayons, he'd say, "No, no!" And hover over the box like it was his job. Finally, I swapped out the crayon I had for another one, and he was okay with that. But I couldn't take more than one apparently.
It was humorous, like he was guarding the box that was specifically for him.
I have a nickname with my nephews. It started when B was just a few months shy of his second birthday. He couldn't say my name, and when he did try, it came out Kiki. So it stuck. He'd argue with anyone when they tried to say my name, he'd say, "No, Kiki." To this day, 2 years later, he still calls me Kiki. Little B started calling me "Cookie." I think he was getting Kiki and the actual food cookie confused. But now he says Kiki, but kind of drawn out. "Kikiii."
B also told me a couple of weeks ago that I was having 5 children, and that their names were going to be Sami, Jo-Jo, Bingo, and Banjo. He didn't realize he left out a name. I asked him why those names, and he said, "Because they are easy to say." Very well. :)
Those definitely won't be the names in the future, although I am not going to crush his idea of those names at the moment.
Friday, March 25, 2011
Free To A Good Home
Along my many organizational projects, I am going through the books I have bought over the years. So far, I'm getting rid of 2 boxes of books. They aren't getting thrown out, but if anyone wants them, have at it. I'm an avid reader, but I thought it would be harder to part with them. I can remember when I was a few years younger thinking that I'd re-read them over and over again. Only the ones that I really enjoyed have been read again. As long as someone else gets enjoyment out of reading them, that's all that matters.
I am cutting down on a lot of things that I don't need. It's just not necessary to have so much. One of the things that I do know I have a lot of is sunglasses. Mainly because I lose a pair, buy a pair, find the original pair, lose both, buy another pair, find them, etc. It continues. To now where I probably have close to ten pairs- since going back to contacts in 2006. Luckily, I never spend more than just a few dollars on sunglasses, but still. There is no need to have that many pairs.
Next up: going through all my art supplies. I have to be careful with some of that stuff, because it is toxic. Which is why it's in sealed totes. I know that my photography stuff is in a tote. Such as the brown jug that I kept on hand for when I had to mix the chemicals for my black and white photography class. Although, I think the one brown jug that I have left has never been used. I do recall disposing of the other jug, with it's chemicals in a very proper way. I did have my turpenoid for painting in a container. I've always been told that when it was time to get rid of that, to saturate the mixture of turpenoid and oil with cloth or lots of paper towels. And that is just what I did. I put so many paper towels in there in order to get it all soaked. Then I wrapped duct tape around the lid to seal it in, and wrapped it in many plastic bags. I also wrote on the container before it went in the plastic bags that it was toxic. Again, it was properly disposed of.
I lead such an exciting life, I know! But it's things that need to be done AND it's keeping me busy. While doing all that, though, I keep thinking of May, of things I need to do before May gets here. I need to start a list, but for now it's all in my head. One of the things that is definitely on my list is having a poster made. There is a website that I have found that allows for a free poster, all I need to do is pay shipping and handling (which is less than $10). I'm trying to decide what picture to use, but I'll figure that out in just a few short days. I already mentioned the idea to C's parents, and they thought it was a good idea. What I am going to do is order the poster soon, have it here before May so that people can sign it. I thought it would be a nice touch for him. It is one of the things I am most excited about, to do for him.
I am cutting down on a lot of things that I don't need. It's just not necessary to have so much. One of the things that I do know I have a lot of is sunglasses. Mainly because I lose a pair, buy a pair, find the original pair, lose both, buy another pair, find them, etc. It continues. To now where I probably have close to ten pairs- since going back to contacts in 2006. Luckily, I never spend more than just a few dollars on sunglasses, but still. There is no need to have that many pairs.
Next up: going through all my art supplies. I have to be careful with some of that stuff, because it is toxic. Which is why it's in sealed totes. I know that my photography stuff is in a tote. Such as the brown jug that I kept on hand for when I had to mix the chemicals for my black and white photography class. Although, I think the one brown jug that I have left has never been used. I do recall disposing of the other jug, with it's chemicals in a very proper way. I did have my turpenoid for painting in a container. I've always been told that when it was time to get rid of that, to saturate the mixture of turpenoid and oil with cloth or lots of paper towels. And that is just what I did. I put so many paper towels in there in order to get it all soaked. Then I wrapped duct tape around the lid to seal it in, and wrapped it in many plastic bags. I also wrote on the container before it went in the plastic bags that it was toxic. Again, it was properly disposed of.
I lead such an exciting life, I know! But it's things that need to be done AND it's keeping me busy. While doing all that, though, I keep thinking of May, of things I need to do before May gets here. I need to start a list, but for now it's all in my head. One of the things that is definitely on my list is having a poster made. There is a website that I have found that allows for a free poster, all I need to do is pay shipping and handling (which is less than $10). I'm trying to decide what picture to use, but I'll figure that out in just a few short days. I already mentioned the idea to C's parents, and they thought it was a good idea. What I am going to do is order the poster soon, have it here before May so that people can sign it. I thought it would be a nice touch for him. It is one of the things I am most excited about, to do for him.
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Motivation
I was able to knock out a paper I have due on the 28th yesterday. For some reason, I keep thinking that the 28th is tomorrow. Negative, it's on Monday. But anyway, the paper is done. I'm going to re-read it before I send it, to make sure it's just the way I want it. I started working on another paper yesterday, and am almost ready to start typing it up.
I also began going through a lot of things. I am determined to not buy another bottle of lotion until I use every opened and unopened bottle that I have. I am a lotion-aholic. I always carry lotion in every purse or bag that I have. I cannot stand the feel of my hands without lotion being on them. I literally cannot think of anything else until I get lotion on my hands. Drives me nuts! It's now affecting my feet. If I don't have socks on my feet yet, I can just feel the dryness. And then I can't think of anything else. Sometimes I'll look at my hands and if they are starting to get dry, I can tell. Then I'll put more lotion on.
I am so weird. But anyways, I have about 3 unopened bottles of lotion, and 3 half-opened bottles. I actually haven't bought lotion in quite awhile-probably since the Summer. But I won't let them go to waste. Believe me, they will be used. I'm just in that "Spring cleaning" frame of mind. I am an avid reader, and I have collected a lot of books over the past 12-14 years. I'm going to go through them all, keep the ones that I want, and give the rest away.
I'm getting more and more anxious as the days pass on, waiting for May to get here. I had this dream this morning that C's mom and I were either boarding a plane to get to him or coming off a plane to meet him. Either way, he was there. I remember thinking that it seemed so surreal. How true that was! Time is flying by, but at the same time, I am so ready for it to be May.
I also began going through a lot of things. I am determined to not buy another bottle of lotion until I use every opened and unopened bottle that I have. I am a lotion-aholic. I always carry lotion in every purse or bag that I have. I cannot stand the feel of my hands without lotion being on them. I literally cannot think of anything else until I get lotion on my hands. Drives me nuts! It's now affecting my feet. If I don't have socks on my feet yet, I can just feel the dryness. And then I can't think of anything else. Sometimes I'll look at my hands and if they are starting to get dry, I can tell. Then I'll put more lotion on.
I am so weird. But anyways, I have about 3 unopened bottles of lotion, and 3 half-opened bottles. I actually haven't bought lotion in quite awhile-probably since the Summer. But I won't let them go to waste. Believe me, they will be used. I'm just in that "Spring cleaning" frame of mind. I am an avid reader, and I have collected a lot of books over the past 12-14 years. I'm going to go through them all, keep the ones that I want, and give the rest away.
I'm getting more and more anxious as the days pass on, waiting for May to get here. I had this dream this morning that C's mom and I were either boarding a plane to get to him or coming off a plane to meet him. Either way, he was there. I remember thinking that it seemed so surreal. How true that was! Time is flying by, but at the same time, I am so ready for it to be May.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Macaroni and Cheese
I'm not above eating Kraft Macaroni and Cheese. It's not very often, but tonight was one of those easy nights. They changed their box design, which I knew about. But it turned me off tonight of the brand, as I was cooking the macaroni and reading the back of the box.
Upon reading the back of the box and how they talk about their new box design, I discovered that they don't use proper punctuation. How in the world are we supposed to teach our children to use proper punctuation and grammar if we as adults can't use it ourselves? It was horrible to read. It was almost like a teenager wrote the paragraph on the back of the box.
I was so shocked when reading that paragraph, that I couldn't get past it. Maybe I'm making a bigger deal out of this than there needs to be. But I really think that people should use proper grammar and punctuation, especially when they are selling a product.
Upon reading the back of the box and how they talk about their new box design, I discovered that they don't use proper punctuation. How in the world are we supposed to teach our children to use proper punctuation and grammar if we as adults can't use it ourselves? It was horrible to read. It was almost like a teenager wrote the paragraph on the back of the box.
I was so shocked when reading that paragraph, that I couldn't get past it. Maybe I'm making a bigger deal out of this than there needs to be. But I really think that people should use proper grammar and punctuation, especially when they are selling a product.
Monday, March 21, 2011
Happy Spring!
Today was the first day of Spring! And it was so nice out.
I applied for a couple of jobs today, and need to print off my resume, cover letter, and college transcripts for another job. Which reminds me I need printer ink. I also began cleaning out clothes that I don't wear anymore. Out of the many pairs of jeans I was certain I could no longer wear, I am only giving away 3. The rest I did try on, and for sure I can still wear them. They are actually kind of loose at times!
Today was an easy Monday. I didn't have class tonight, but I will have it tomorrow night. I'm going to work on homework tomorrow, knock out a couple of projects, and work on a project or two.
I applied for a couple of jobs today, and need to print off my resume, cover letter, and college transcripts for another job. Which reminds me I need printer ink. I also began cleaning out clothes that I don't wear anymore. Out of the many pairs of jeans I was certain I could no longer wear, I am only giving away 3. The rest I did try on, and for sure I can still wear them. They are actually kind of loose at times!
Today was an easy Monday. I didn't have class tonight, but I will have it tomorrow night. I'm going to work on homework tomorrow, knock out a couple of projects, and work on a project or two.
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Needed That Today
My friend, K, is having a baby.
Well, not at the moment, but is due in May. So today was her baby shower. I went with my sister and our other friend, C. On the way down, we were dancing and being silly, just talking about every day life. At one point, I had apparently said something, and then suddenly, I was laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes. C said something, and again I began laughing a lot with tears in my eyes. We had such a great time at the shower, and I'm glad we got to sit down and just talk afterwards.
I really needed that today. I just needed to laugh and be surrounded by friends after Friday. I wish I had a crystal ball to see what was coming next. I hate to say it, but I have prepared myself for the worst. When I say "worst", I don't mean grieving. I just mean, expect the unexpected. I think about things that might happen, because anything is possible.
this blog is kind of turning into my updates on everything lately. It didn't start out that way, and I know I'll go back to posting other things soon. I'm boring, I know. :) I haven't even baked anything really good lately. Well, last weekend I made cherry cupcakes, but those didn't turn out like cupcakes. It was more like a muffin. My nephews still enjoyed them! :)
Well, not at the moment, but is due in May. So today was her baby shower. I went with my sister and our other friend, C. On the way down, we were dancing and being silly, just talking about every day life. At one point, I had apparently said something, and then suddenly, I was laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes. C said something, and again I began laughing a lot with tears in my eyes. We had such a great time at the shower, and I'm glad we got to sit down and just talk afterwards.
I really needed that today. I just needed to laugh and be surrounded by friends after Friday. I wish I had a crystal ball to see what was coming next. I hate to say it, but I have prepared myself for the worst. When I say "worst", I don't mean grieving. I just mean, expect the unexpected. I think about things that might happen, because anything is possible.
this blog is kind of turning into my updates on everything lately. It didn't start out that way, and I know I'll go back to posting other things soon. I'm boring, I know. :) I haven't even baked anything really good lately. Well, last weekend I made cherry cupcakes, but those didn't turn out like cupcakes. It was more like a muffin. My nephews still enjoyed them! :)
Saturday, March 19, 2011
"I Said, Baby, You're Not Lost"
"Cause you are not alone. I'm always there with you. And we'll get lost together. Til the light comes pouring through. Cause when you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won. Babe, you're not lost. When your world is crashing down and you cannot bear the cross. I said, baby, you're not lost."
I love Michael Buble. He has such an amazing voice. This song of his speaks to me. I have it on my iPod, but I just heard it when I was watching NCIS while I was uploading photos to order from Snapfish. It reminded me of C. When thing are tough, he's there. When things are tough on his end, I'm there. He's the only person I want to spend my life getting lost with.
That kind of reminds me of when I spent time with him a couple of months ago. We were looking for a destination, and turned right, thinking it was in that direction. We walked for a bit before we realized that either we were in the wrong direction or we needed to turn completely around. So we turned around, and within 2 minutes, we spotted the destination. We both just started laughing.
I'm always asked how I do it, because it's hard to be away from the one you love. Yes, I agree, it is. People tell me that I am so strong and courageous for being in a long distance relationship. There are times when I want to fall apart, when I completely want to give in for the night and have a good cry. And I have cried. I'm not going to say it's always a bed of roses, because it is challenging. But in order to overcome those challenges, we've worked together, albeit far away. I've never once doubted him, and he's never doubted me. That was the first huge hurdle we had to get through. Not every LDR (long distance relationship) can get through it, because it is hard not to have doubts. Believe me, I have heard stories from others. Patience is another challenge. My kind of LDR isn't like a usual LDR. There have been many times when I get more emails than phone calls or Skype dates. And there have been times when it's been solely email that it could be more than a week at a time. I know he hasn't forgotten about me or anyone else that he cares about. He's just busy doing more important things. And I get it. I understand why he's doing what he's doing. That is his first priority, as it should be.
But it's memories like the one I just typed about that keep me going. Through the hard times, those are what cheer me up when I cannot talk to him. The memories that we have made together are very important. I carry them in my heart.
Never, ever look at any kind of LDR in terms of negativity. I've always remained positive and upbeat. I've always told myself (and him, as well), "This isn't forever; this is temporary." And I'm right. So it's helped to be positive, upbeat, have a great attitude towards it all. I can't change it, but I can control my actions, my thoughts.I am rambling, I know.
This has been one of the hardest weeks in our 2 year, 1 month, and 5 day relationship. There have been about 3 of them that I can remember. I know I won't stop worrying until he is back here. But at the same time, I know he's safe.
Tonight, though, was one of those nights where I gave in and cried a little. Michael Buble's song did it for me. It's hard not to worry, it's hard not to be stressed, scared, unsure. I feel helpless. I can't do anything on this end for him besides pray. I can't physically be there.
Things will be okay, though. And soon, he'll be back here. In the meantime, I've got things to keep me busy and focused on here. It will make the time go by so much faster.
I love Michael Buble. He has such an amazing voice. This song of his speaks to me. I have it on my iPod, but I just heard it when I was watching NCIS while I was uploading photos to order from Snapfish. It reminded me of C. When thing are tough, he's there. When things are tough on his end, I'm there. He's the only person I want to spend my life getting lost with.
That kind of reminds me of when I spent time with him a couple of months ago. We were looking for a destination, and turned right, thinking it was in that direction. We walked for a bit before we realized that either we were in the wrong direction or we needed to turn completely around. So we turned around, and within 2 minutes, we spotted the destination. We both just started laughing.
I'm always asked how I do it, because it's hard to be away from the one you love. Yes, I agree, it is. People tell me that I am so strong and courageous for being in a long distance relationship. There are times when I want to fall apart, when I completely want to give in for the night and have a good cry. And I have cried. I'm not going to say it's always a bed of roses, because it is challenging. But in order to overcome those challenges, we've worked together, albeit far away. I've never once doubted him, and he's never doubted me. That was the first huge hurdle we had to get through. Not every LDR (long distance relationship) can get through it, because it is hard not to have doubts. Believe me, I have heard stories from others. Patience is another challenge. My kind of LDR isn't like a usual LDR. There have been many times when I get more emails than phone calls or Skype dates. And there have been times when it's been solely email that it could be more than a week at a time. I know he hasn't forgotten about me or anyone else that he cares about. He's just busy doing more important things. And I get it. I understand why he's doing what he's doing. That is his first priority, as it should be.
But it's memories like the one I just typed about that keep me going. Through the hard times, those are what cheer me up when I cannot talk to him. The memories that we have made together are very important. I carry them in my heart.
Never, ever look at any kind of LDR in terms of negativity. I've always remained positive and upbeat. I've always told myself (and him, as well), "This isn't forever; this is temporary." And I'm right. So it's helped to be positive, upbeat, have a great attitude towards it all. I can't change it, but I can control my actions, my thoughts.I am rambling, I know.
This has been one of the hardest weeks in our 2 year, 1 month, and 5 day relationship. There have been about 3 of them that I can remember. I know I won't stop worrying until he is back here. But at the same time, I know he's safe.
Tonight, though, was one of those nights where I gave in and cried a little. Michael Buble's song did it for me. It's hard not to worry, it's hard not to be stressed, scared, unsure. I feel helpless. I can't do anything on this end for him besides pray. I can't physically be there.
Things will be okay, though. And soon, he'll be back here. In the meantime, I've got things to keep me busy and focused on here. It will make the time go by so much faster.
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Hard Not To
It's been a heck of a week. First off all, I want to thank so many of you for thinking of C and keeping him in your prayers. The tremendous support we have received has been amazing. I've been praying as much as possible- for everyone. Today was just one of those days where I could have used some cupcakes. But I did not give in to any sweets, so that was some willpower right there.
It's hard not to worry about the people that I care about. I'm worried about C, about his parents who are visiting him at the moment. With everything going on, I'm not sure what is going to happen. I'm preparing myself for anything. We are so close, so close. I did end up getting on Facebook last night and again this morning, checking to make sure everyone was safe. It is a bad time for me to give it up, but I am still going to try.
On top of that, my balance has been off the past few days. I've never experienced it that bad. It's gotten stronger in the past day. As in what I call "waves." It is the worst feeling a body can experience. This morning, my alarm went off as usual. I scrambled out of bed to shut it off. Only, I didn't get that far. I ended up crashing into the rocking chair I have close to my bed. And then I just fell over,catching myself as I fell. I think I was stunned and still out of it when I fell.
I am okay, though. I thought I bruised my ribs some, but nothing is sore. Hopefully it doesn't happen again.
Enjoy your week!
It's hard not to worry about the people that I care about. I'm worried about C, about his parents who are visiting him at the moment. With everything going on, I'm not sure what is going to happen. I'm preparing myself for anything. We are so close, so close. I did end up getting on Facebook last night and again this morning, checking to make sure everyone was safe. It is a bad time for me to give it up, but I am still going to try.
On top of that, my balance has been off the past few days. I've never experienced it that bad. It's gotten stronger in the past day. As in what I call "waves." It is the worst feeling a body can experience. This morning, my alarm went off as usual. I scrambled out of bed to shut it off. Only, I didn't get that far. I ended up crashing into the rocking chair I have close to my bed. And then I just fell over,catching myself as I fell. I think I was stunned and still out of it when I fell.
I am okay, though. I thought I bruised my ribs some, but nothing is sore. Hopefully it doesn't happen again.
Enjoy your week!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
"It's like being on a boat...but never leaving land!"
I've been suffering from a cold since last Thursday or Friday. I really thought I was over it by Sunday. But it flared up again yesterday morning. I woke up at 5:45 yesterday morning, but decided to go back to sleep for a few minutes. I noticed when I rolled over, I felt funny.
My alarm went off at 6:15. I got out of bed and immediately had to hold onto a book case because my balance was that off. I didn't feel good at all. I was very tired, even though I got a lot of sleep the night before. But yesterday was a good day despite the scratchy throat, and being off balance. I got to give a presentation- and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm glad I was invited to give that presentation and that I got to do it. I had to cancel it a couple of weeks ago because I caught the stomach bug that was going around.
I came home last night, and all I wanted to do was go back to bed. I struggled to get through everything I wanted to finish before I went to bed. Finally, I finished around 8:30, and I was ready to call it a day. I woke up this morning at 5:44 (funny, right?) and went back to sleep until 6:15. Again, my balance was off. I noticed as I went about my morning that it didn't matter if I was sitting or standing, it would still occur. I have felt kind of "out of it" the last couple of days. It's like my math skills went out the window and I lost any kind of speaking skills at times- or so it seems.
For me, it is one of the worst feelings a body can experience. It's like being on a boat, but never leaving land. That is the best way I can describe it, if you have never experienced it. Sometimes nausea accompanies it, but it wasn't as often today. Since I'm still feeling under the weather, and I had the afternoon off, I did come home and take a nap.
I had my worst off-balance experience when I rolled over to fall asleep this afternoon. It was a huge wave of it, and then smaller waves occured. I just clutched the blanket and hoped it stopped soon. I took about a 2 hour nap. I woke up still exhausted, but feeling better than I had in a couple of days. I was able to finish my research for my current paper that is due on Friday, and even wrote the paper. It is now finished, and I am so excited that I finally got it done. That says a lot, considering I haven't had any motivation since I came down with this cold on Thursday or Friday.
Now I just need to start another paper for another class, which I should finish this weekend, and then start the next project for that class as well. Other than that, just recovering from this cold and taking it easy this weekend.
My alarm went off at 6:15. I got out of bed and immediately had to hold onto a book case because my balance was that off. I didn't feel good at all. I was very tired, even though I got a lot of sleep the night before. But yesterday was a good day despite the scratchy throat, and being off balance. I got to give a presentation- and I thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm glad I was invited to give that presentation and that I got to do it. I had to cancel it a couple of weeks ago because I caught the stomach bug that was going around.
I came home last night, and all I wanted to do was go back to bed. I struggled to get through everything I wanted to finish before I went to bed. Finally, I finished around 8:30, and I was ready to call it a day. I woke up this morning at 5:44 (funny, right?) and went back to sleep until 6:15. Again, my balance was off. I noticed as I went about my morning that it didn't matter if I was sitting or standing, it would still occur. I have felt kind of "out of it" the last couple of days. It's like my math skills went out the window and I lost any kind of speaking skills at times- or so it seems.
For me, it is one of the worst feelings a body can experience. It's like being on a boat, but never leaving land. That is the best way I can describe it, if you have never experienced it. Sometimes nausea accompanies it, but it wasn't as often today. Since I'm still feeling under the weather, and I had the afternoon off, I did come home and take a nap.
I had my worst off-balance experience when I rolled over to fall asleep this afternoon. It was a huge wave of it, and then smaller waves occured. I just clutched the blanket and hoped it stopped soon. I took about a 2 hour nap. I woke up still exhausted, but feeling better than I had in a couple of days. I was able to finish my research for my current paper that is due on Friday, and even wrote the paper. It is now finished, and I am so excited that I finally got it done. That says a lot, considering I haven't had any motivation since I came down with this cold on Thursday or Friday.
Now I just need to start another paper for another class, which I should finish this weekend, and then start the next project for that class as well. Other than that, just recovering from this cold and taking it easy this weekend.
Monday, March 14, 2011
What A Difference
Just a few days ago, I gave up Facebook, sweets, and junk food for Lent. I did get on Facebook yesterday, and I did eat a cupcake as well yesterday. But I felt guilty doing both, like it was ingrained in my brain to not do those things. I had to make a long drive this morning, and I became hungry on the way back. Maybe before I would have stopped at a place to get a sandwich. Although that doesn't happen very often. But do you see how easy, how simple it is for me to do that?
Because I've been incorporating more fruits, veggies, more healthy sandwiches, more dairy in my life, I don't hardly notice not having sweets. And I am a choco-holic. Self-proclaimed. It's been almost 6 days since I have had any chocolate, and I am super-impressed. I can bake and not eat it, I've done it dozens of times before.
I'm not only doing this for Lent, but to break habits. I got to eat red velvet cake in the form of yogurt today, and it was so good. Just as good as red velvet cake.
Okay, now I'm going to go eat my orange!
Because I've been incorporating more fruits, veggies, more healthy sandwiches, more dairy in my life, I don't hardly notice not having sweets. And I am a choco-holic. Self-proclaimed. It's been almost 6 days since I have had any chocolate, and I am super-impressed. I can bake and not eat it, I've done it dozens of times before.
I'm not only doing this for Lent, but to break habits. I got to eat red velvet cake in the form of yogurt today, and it was so good. Just as good as red velvet cake.
Okay, now I'm going to go eat my orange!
Sunday, March 13, 2011
How Did I Know?
C and I grew up in the same town. Although, I can't really remember him much before 6th grade. We ran cross country together in 7th grade, went to 2 semi-formals together in high school, and also dated briefly twice in high school. After high school, we started out at the same college, lived not far from each other, but our lives took us in other directions.
He was home for a couple of weeks in February 2009. He asked me to go to dinner with him, his best friend, and his wife for Valentine's Day. So we did. He picked me up, we met up with his best friend and his wife at their house. We played Wii- which was a lot of fun. It was my first Wii experience. :) We went to dinner, and it was wonderful. He went back to another state the next day.
I remember asking if I can see him. We laughed as he said I had to get over my fear of flying first. I'm a nervous flyer, by the way. I made a promise to him that I would come see him. A couple of months later, his mom and I drove down to Virginia Beach to see him. It was such a wonderful trip! I was still pretty hesitant- about what the future would hold, not really wanting to see what was in front of me. He flew back overseas in May, a day after we went to his cousin's wedding. We had a blast at the wedding.
I was sitting in church one Sunday morning. I was on the kneeler for that part of Mass. I looked up at the altar, and I instantly saw a vision of us standing up there, surrounded by our family and friends. I have never seen anything like that in my life. If I hadn't already been on my knees, I am certain I would have been after that.
He makes me so happy. I have told him before that I don't base my happiness solely on him, but that he adds into it. He was able to call yesterday morning and we got to talk for awhile. He makes me laugh, and I make him laugh. I'm talking the kind of laughter that comes from deep inside. We fit each other so well. In a week, we'll be in the 40's. I told him that yesterday morning, and he said, "What? I thought it was getting warmer there." To which I started laughing and I said, "No, no. Sorry, I should have said that we will have 40-some days left until you return." There was some confusion because it was almost 2 in the morning at that time for him.
I know it will happen somday. :)
He was home for a couple of weeks in February 2009. He asked me to go to dinner with him, his best friend, and his wife for Valentine's Day. So we did. He picked me up, we met up with his best friend and his wife at their house. We played Wii- which was a lot of fun. It was my first Wii experience. :) We went to dinner, and it was wonderful. He went back to another state the next day.
I remember asking if I can see him. We laughed as he said I had to get over my fear of flying first. I'm a nervous flyer, by the way. I made a promise to him that I would come see him. A couple of months later, his mom and I drove down to Virginia Beach to see him. It was such a wonderful trip! I was still pretty hesitant- about what the future would hold, not really wanting to see what was in front of me. He flew back overseas in May, a day after we went to his cousin's wedding. We had a blast at the wedding.
I was sitting in church one Sunday morning. I was on the kneeler for that part of Mass. I looked up at the altar, and I instantly saw a vision of us standing up there, surrounded by our family and friends. I have never seen anything like that in my life. If I hadn't already been on my knees, I am certain I would have been after that.
He makes me so happy. I have told him before that I don't base my happiness solely on him, but that he adds into it. He was able to call yesterday morning and we got to talk for awhile. He makes me laugh, and I make him laugh. I'm talking the kind of laughter that comes from deep inside. We fit each other so well. In a week, we'll be in the 40's. I told him that yesterday morning, and he said, "What? I thought it was getting warmer there." To which I started laughing and I said, "No, no. Sorry, I should have said that we will have 40-some days left until you return." There was some confusion because it was almost 2 in the morning at that time for him.
I know it will happen somday. :)
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Trips West
I have photos from three trips. It's amazing that in just the 5 years from when the first photos are taken, how far we have come in digital images. Yes, those are the actual dates on that trip.
This is Mt. Rainier, not far from Seattle.
This outside my Aunt's town in WA.
This is in Arizona, near the soutwest CA border. I was playing around with my color accent on my camera.
What a gorgeous sunset! Still in AZ.
In St. Louis. Yes, that is the Arch in the distance.
I have been told this is the largest cross in the United States. I believe it's near Oklahoma.
I do believe this is in New Mexico.
My first ghost town ever- on the way to AZ!
San Diego!
U.S.S. Midway, now a museum.
Right outside the U.S.S. Midway. How fitting, right?? :)
Friday, March 11, 2011
Frantic
Today isn't a normal Friday. It's 8 am, and my nerves are already shot.
My mom asked me this morning if I've heard from C lately. I told her no, and asked her why. She informed me of what's going on in the world. I immediately went into a panic for the next few minutes as I tried to get ahold of his mom to see if she's heard from him.
She tells me that he has emailed us all that he is fine, but did feel it. I am so thankful he is alright. I breathed a sigh of relief and thanked God he is okay. But it's still very heartbreaking for others. I am going to keep them in my thoughts and prayers.
My mom asked me this morning if I've heard from C lately. I told her no, and asked her why. She informed me of what's going on in the world. I immediately went into a panic for the next few minutes as I tried to get ahold of his mom to see if she's heard from him.
She tells me that he has emailed us all that he is fine, but did feel it. I am so thankful he is alright. I breathed a sigh of relief and thanked God he is okay. But it's still very heartbreaking for others. I am going to keep them in my thoughts and prayers.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Mardi Gras Care Package
I always enjoy putting together care packages for C! I have always had a theme for when I do care packages. I've done a vacation themed one, Christmas themed, 3 Valentine's themed ones, an Easter theme, a birthday care package, one about a song titled, "I'm On A Boat" (it's because of what he does), 4th of July theme, and I can't remember what else. After this one I am getting ready to send out, I have no clue what I will put in 2 of the remaining 3. I'm not trying to spend a lot (I usually put things in there he can use as a stress-reliever), so maybe more baked goodies than anything.
I'm undecided if I'll continue it when he comes back. I have thoroughly enjoyed it. Who knows? I could still do it. :)
Zentangles
I was told to research this technique a year and a half ago by another artist who discovered it. They knew I love to doodle, and wanted to share it with me. I do it every so often, but I haven't done it in about 3 weeks. This was the last one that I did. I actually loved it, but I know it's not done yet.
Second day of Lent!
I woke up yesterday morning feeling energized and ready to start this Lenten season. As most of you know, I gave up sweets, but then decided to not just stop there and give up all junk food as well. I also gave up Facebook. Unfortunately, I could not give up the Internet entirely, because I submit a lot of projects via Blackboard for my classes online. It's the only form my professor will accept them in.
But I got off topic. Anyways, Mass yesterday was all about giving up the indulgences that we have in our lives. For me, Facebook is an indulgence. Same as junk food and sweets. Not only that, but my Priest talked about bettering our lives, organizing all the clutter in our lives, in our closets, etc., and giving those items away to others who truly need them. It's inspired me to do a major over-haul of my clothes. I plan to tackle this sometime in the next few weeks. Perhaps in a couple of weeks when I know I'll have more time.
I had this crazy dream early this morning that I was feeling sick in my dream. Then I woke up and felt like crap. Last week, it was a stomach bug. This week it's a nasty cold that has me feeling achy, with a sore throat. My mom was just commenting a couple of weeks ago on how I haven't been that sick this year. I was jinxed!
I kid, I kid.
But I got off topic. Anyways, Mass yesterday was all about giving up the indulgences that we have in our lives. For me, Facebook is an indulgence. Same as junk food and sweets. Not only that, but my Priest talked about bettering our lives, organizing all the clutter in our lives, in our closets, etc., and giving those items away to others who truly need them. It's inspired me to do a major over-haul of my clothes. I plan to tackle this sometime in the next few weeks. Perhaps in a couple of weeks when I know I'll have more time.
I had this crazy dream early this morning that I was feeling sick in my dream. Then I woke up and felt like crap. Last week, it was a stomach bug. This week it's a nasty cold that has me feeling achy, with a sore throat. My mom was just commenting a couple of weeks ago on how I haven't been that sick this year. I was jinxed!
I kid, I kid.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Monday, Monday
So my package for my phone arrived this afternoon.
Without the phone.
It was shipped in a priority mail envelope, which astounded me. So I immediately contacted the company, and let them know that the phone got lost somewhere along the way. I told them I either want a full refund or them to ship a new phone to me. This time in a box. I am waiting to hear what they decide to do.
I was really disappointed and upset that it came in an envelope. To me, it said, "We don't care if it gets lost in the mail. We're going to ship it like this anyway."
I'm Catholic, and tomorrow is Fat Tuesday (a full-day Mardi Gras celebration). Tomorrow means that I can have meat, and all the things I am giving up for Lent. Then on Wednesday, I fast all day, eat fish at night, and go to church services to get ashes put on my forehead. I shared my doubts about being knowing that I will struggle with giving up sweets/junk food for Lent. My Grandma and my Mom pointed out that every Sunday I can have junk food/sweets. I said that wasn't possible. However, my Mom said that was how my Grandpa always told them, because when we count the 40 days up, it does not include Sundays. I thought she was teasing me. But she's right. I counted the days. Sundays are not included. Because, Sunday is considered the day of rest.
And last but not least, I am working on another care package for C right now. Saint Patty's day themed. Lately, I've been painting the boxes (I have 2 more semi-painted) because I have a lot of acrylic paint that I want to use up. I always check to make sure that every care package gets there. I mailed one off last Saturday, and he got it by this past Thursday or Friday. I was so shocked! He's never gotten one so quickly. Ordinarily, they can take a couple of weeks to a couple of months to get there. After this care package, I will have 5 boxes left. I'm trying to get them out before he comes home, and that is my motivation.
Hope your week is off to a great start!
Without the phone.
It was shipped in a priority mail envelope, which astounded me. So I immediately contacted the company, and let them know that the phone got lost somewhere along the way. I told them I either want a full refund or them to ship a new phone to me. This time in a box. I am waiting to hear what they decide to do.
I was really disappointed and upset that it came in an envelope. To me, it said, "We don't care if it gets lost in the mail. We're going to ship it like this anyway."
I'm Catholic, and tomorrow is Fat Tuesday (a full-day Mardi Gras celebration). Tomorrow means that I can have meat, and all the things I am giving up for Lent. Then on Wednesday, I fast all day, eat fish at night, and go to church services to get ashes put on my forehead. I shared my doubts about being knowing that I will struggle with giving up sweets/junk food for Lent. My Grandma and my Mom pointed out that every Sunday I can have junk food/sweets. I said that wasn't possible. However, my Mom said that was how my Grandpa always told them, because when we count the 40 days up, it does not include Sundays. I thought she was teasing me. But she's right. I counted the days. Sundays are not included. Because, Sunday is considered the day of rest.
And last but not least, I am working on another care package for C right now. Saint Patty's day themed. Lately, I've been painting the boxes (I have 2 more semi-painted) because I have a lot of acrylic paint that I want to use up. I always check to make sure that every care package gets there. I mailed one off last Saturday, and he got it by this past Thursday or Friday. I was so shocked! He's never gotten one so quickly. Ordinarily, they can take a couple of weeks to a couple of months to get there. After this care package, I will have 5 boxes left. I'm trying to get them out before he comes home, and that is my motivation.
Hope your week is off to a great start!
Sunday, March 6, 2011
My night...last night
I got in at 2:30-ish this morning.
I spent the evening with my C's best friend, his wife, and their son. We called C and got to talk to him, and then set up time for gaming later. Let me tell you, I am not a gamer. Sure, I play Super Mario Bros. on the Wii every now and then, but I don't play other games. But I was up for it. My boyfriend games with his best friend, brother, and other friends, so that was nothing new for any of them.
At first, my headset didn't work. We couldn't figure out what was going on, but eventually we got it figured out. It was so fun! I am such a newbie at it, that I wasn't doing much damage. I would celebrate when I got a kill, though. In fact, in the last set of games we played, I kind of laid-low as to not get killed by the other team. :D I had a blast being able to play with my boyfriend, his brother, and his best friend. I have to get used to the trash-talking that they do, but it was pretty funny.
We talked about him coming home in a couple of months. It's all becoming more real. I am sure in another month, I'll start freaking out. I can't believe it's almost here. We really have waited such a long time for this. Not just myself, but everyone in his life. As of right now, we're taking a mini-trip when he comes home. Although it's set for Memorial Day weekend, I could not be more excited. When I got home, I looked up the link he sent me again on it all, and really wished it was the end of May right now!
All in due time, I know.
Patiently waiting...
I spent the evening with my C's best friend, his wife, and their son. We called C and got to talk to him, and then set up time for gaming later. Let me tell you, I am not a gamer. Sure, I play Super Mario Bros. on the Wii every now and then, but I don't play other games. But I was up for it. My boyfriend games with his best friend, brother, and other friends, so that was nothing new for any of them.
At first, my headset didn't work. We couldn't figure out what was going on, but eventually we got it figured out. It was so fun! I am such a newbie at it, that I wasn't doing much damage. I would celebrate when I got a kill, though. In fact, in the last set of games we played, I kind of laid-low as to not get killed by the other team. :D I had a blast being able to play with my boyfriend, his brother, and his best friend. I have to get used to the trash-talking that they do, but it was pretty funny.
We talked about him coming home in a couple of months. It's all becoming more real. I am sure in another month, I'll start freaking out. I can't believe it's almost here. We really have waited such a long time for this. Not just myself, but everyone in his life. As of right now, we're taking a mini-trip when he comes home. Although it's set for Memorial Day weekend, I could not be more excited. When I got home, I looked up the link he sent me again on it all, and really wished it was the end of May right now!
All in due time, I know.
Patiently waiting...
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Greek Yogurt
I was so hesitant to try this when it first came out-or became popular months ago. I heard that some liked it, but it left an after taste, I heard it was too thick and not the same. I stayed away from it until about 2 weeks ago, when I tried the blueberry kind. Yes, it's think, but it does taste good. I picked some up a couple of days ago at my grocery store. This time it was with honey on the bottom. Yum! It's so good!
I love yogurt in general. Well, not plain- it has to be flavored. I also like the kind that tastes just like what it says it is (you know, blueberry pie, cherry cobbler, pineapple upside down cake, cinnamon roll). I just can't remember who makes it. Either Dannon or YoPlait. But still-oh so good. It's like eating a lot of those unhealthy things, but in a smaller, healthier form. So I can get my junk food kick and still be healthy! Plus, I get some calcium in my body as well.
Tomorrow is supposed to be nicer out, and I am so looking forward to it. I've been ready for Spring way before February was even over. I wish I could give Mother Nature a little prod with a stick to get her moving along. :D But all in due time.
I love yogurt in general. Well, not plain- it has to be flavored. I also like the kind that tastes just like what it says it is (you know, blueberry pie, cherry cobbler, pineapple upside down cake, cinnamon roll). I just can't remember who makes it. Either Dannon or YoPlait. But still-oh so good. It's like eating a lot of those unhealthy things, but in a smaller, healthier form. So I can get my junk food kick and still be healthy! Plus, I get some calcium in my body as well.
Tomorrow is supposed to be nicer out, and I am so looking forward to it. I've been ready for Spring way before February was even over. I wish I could give Mother Nature a little prod with a stick to get her moving along. :D But all in due time.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Well, Boo
I'm so glad that I did Yoga this morning, as well as some other strength training. The rec center was so busy tonight that we couldn't even work out. We (my sis and I) even went to the grocery store AND then came back, and it was still incredibly busy.
Needless to say, I was disappointed.
But on the plus side, I got lots of yummy goodies at the grocery store, like Quaker rice cakes. Yum!
In the next post, I think I'll post a couple of pictures from my trip out West back in 2006. I hope you are all having a great week. It's the first day of March, so I'm a happy girl right now. I almost have 2 months to go until I see C again. I still can't believe it's happening. He left May 3rd, 2009, and has only been home once since then. Ironically, he comes back 2 years and 4 days after he left. I am so ready for him to be closer. Some times are harder than others, but through it all, I've remained upbeat about it. I've always told him that it wasn't forever, just temporary. I knew two years ago that he was worth waiting for. Someday, I'll have to tell you all the story of how I just knew he was "The One."
Alrighty, I am going to go look up running shoes, to get an idea of the kind I want.
Needless to say, I was disappointed.
But on the plus side, I got lots of yummy goodies at the grocery store, like Quaker rice cakes. Yum!
In the next post, I think I'll post a couple of pictures from my trip out West back in 2006. I hope you are all having a great week. It's the first day of March, so I'm a happy girl right now. I almost have 2 months to go until I see C again. I still can't believe it's happening. He left May 3rd, 2009, and has only been home once since then. Ironically, he comes back 2 years and 4 days after he left. I am so ready for him to be closer. Some times are harder than others, but through it all, I've remained upbeat about it. I've always told him that it wasn't forever, just temporary. I knew two years ago that he was worth waiting for. Someday, I'll have to tell you all the story of how I just knew he was "The One."
Alrighty, I am going to go look up running shoes, to get an idea of the kind I want.
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